hi, hi. these days i have been feeling like shit, the treatment for my tumour is painful, it has a lot of second effects, i throw everything at night, i'm always dazed and i just want to stop masking i'm not hurt, but yes, i am. so my period came last thursday and all the time it lasted (until today) it was horrid, not just cramps and blood, every single day was a torture, not even painkillers could destroy what i was feeling (i can't believe those supposed cramps lasted all my fucking period seriously wtf) and not even sleep could fresh my mind of how gross and utterly disgusting i felt. just ugh. i wanted to kill myself i'm not kidding.
also, i went to a two days trip with my family to mty, dad wanted to rest some time so we enjoyed the peace of another city, it was so pretty (and ignoring the fact that i was literally dying) and fun, time with your beloved ones is always a nice thing oh yes, i wanted to go to an exotic restaurant that my old sis and i love but weather was a bit ugly so we couldn't, instead we ate vegetarian pizza (BEST PIZZA EVER IT WAS ITALIAN MADE BY ITALIANS AY YEAAA).
and although all my negativity otl, i have another obsession this month, aka happiness by red velvet; those lovely ladies are so bright, talented and charismatic you will feel instantly better with their cheer smiles and great music! i will end up doing a thousand fanarts of them just wait lmao

and that's all bye

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